A Letter To The Dark
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1.
I was afraid of you until the age of eleven.
Your slow, steady way
of filling a room
made me feel like I
was quietly drowning.
An empty canvas,
a silence in which my thoughts manifested,
you tasted like monsters
I didn’t quite know how to conquer yet.
Bedsheets became clothespins
and I was hung helplessly,
a cold,trembling rag,
unable to do anything but drip tears
and wait for the sun,
wait to be warm and worn again.
You were my ribcage,
the gaps between my teeth.
You were the back of my own eyelids.
I think thats what scared me the most.
2.
I lit myself on fire for you.
Struck a match across
my nearly-pertruding
pristine pre-teen collarbone
and felt the flames
as they licked my lips.
I was swallowed whole,
brought to life in a flurry
of blood and blisters
until my bones gave in.
I had shed my sunlight skin,
felt as my insides darkened
and my fingertips dipped into ash.
I felt the cold wind kick in
I felt it scatter my body,
a parade of ravens
without any wings.
I ran away so fast, I tripped and fell into you.
3.
You have manifested into a lover.
You swoop me up
into your arms
and I have learned
to fall into you
Sometimes feeling numb
is almost better than being alone
You hide under my tongue
and nap in the sleeves of my sweater
You are the ugly duckling of sunflowers
turning your back to the light
Sometimes I can almost pity you.
You didn’t choose to be a monster.
I didn’t choose to carry you
in the pit of my stomach.
Dear Dark,
I guess I didn’t have to try too hard in order to love you.
I think thats what scares me the most.
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